Sunday, June 29, 2025

Trust issues

Let's face it... the last 10 years.... I have had a lot of people make a lot of assumptions of what they thought was going on in my life and how things happened and nothing could be further from the truth.  This last week I had someone that I thought maybe, just maybe a relationship could be "rehabilitated".  It never would be the same, but perhaps it could be redefined.  BUT THEN.....  A statement was made that made everything so clear.  What had been said, what had been assumed, what lies had been told and people had chosen to believe.  

This is a person, or people, that I had done a lot for.  It’s not that I was keeping score, and anyone that really knows me knows that I do not keep score.  I did these things out of love.  The kind of love that a grandmother has for a grandchild, a stepmother has for a stepson(s) or and HIS wife.  Maybe these things were said because they knew that I knew the truth.  I knew their background story because they had lived with me.  They had made my life a living hell while living me and undermining my authority in my own home.   

The thing I have to work on is trusting again.  That is what I am most angry about.  I trusted.  I trusted a lot of people.  I trusted that these people would be there when we needed them and they were not.  It was a hard lesson.  You cannot put your trust in man.  CANNOT.  Not even those that you would call family, they are the first to turn.  God alone.  

Sunday, March 30, 2025

Should I or Shouldn't I?

The world according to Barb.  I cannot tell you how many times I have thought.... I should start blogging again.  I should start "writing" again.  It is such a good way to get things out.  However, would it cause more problems than it's worth?   The answer YES.  I wouldn't have to post everything I typed.  I wouldn't have to post everything I wrote.  

Maybe I will.