Saturday, September 3, 2022

I guess I shouldn’t be surprised

 Entitlement. It just surprises me how many people think they are owed something.  The lies and I mean lies that are being told about me… things that I have done, said…etc.  The lies and stories being told about Terry that he has done and said. First, we lost our home in Herriman. We didn’t sell it to hide money. We had so many medical bills etc and I was being garnished …  Terry hasn’t worked since 2011. He didn’t qualify for disability because he hadn’t worked in the last 5 years once he applied. Why hadn’t he worked? He was with his mother. We had doctors notes, we went to attorneys etc… basically we were told tough, take early retirement. 

I didn’t tell Terry at first we had lost the house. I should have. I have someone, I know who it is, spreading lies about that whole mess. Truth… this person, liar, manipulating girl has NO idea what she is talking about. Instead of coming to me either in person, which she won’t, because she knows she has done me so dirty in so many ways, has choose to continue to lie. Unfortunately, there are those that listened to her lies. Instead of thinking for themselves and going… um that doesn’t even sound right. Um, maybe I should ask Barb. Um, why would Terry and Barb be living in a 14x70 trailer if they had ALL that money. Think … just Think.

I know I’m not entitled to anything. I have been lied too by so many people. I’ve been used and told “I appreciate you so much.” Then stabbed. Life is a big test. The last 12 years have been rough. I’ve lost a lot… however, I’ve learned more. You can only count on God. Those that say they will always be there… not. Those that say they appreciate you… they don’t, just as long as you are doing what they want. Remember, you are entitled to nothing. Count on no one. 

I’m tired. Tired of waiting for peace. Tired of everyone expecting me to just take it or take care of… one day, one day.  I’m not entitled… however.. either are you.. brother, daughter in law, son or anyone else.

Tuesday, August 23, 2022

It’s actually kinda freeing

 It’s actually kinda freeing when you just don’t care anymore. I guess the best way to put it… I will never give up hope. However, I will not allow myself to get my hopes up. 

It’s no lie and I will not hide we are not the perfect family. As a parent I made my share of mistakes and I will admit that. I could have and should have done some things differently. I have made decisions out of fear. I have made decisions out of guilt. However, I have never made decisions that would deliberately hurt someone. Some of the things that I have been accused of doing are so hurtful and wrong. If one would stop and think… look at the facts. That being said. Moving forward, I won’t put myself in a position where I can be fooled again. Even by those that are suppose to love you the most. This is not my home. That is what keeps me going. One day the truth will come out. All those that have lied, taken advantage it will… I will be more careful with my heart.