Life is FULL of Lessons

It's been a tough 24 hours.  It's been a tough 6 months.  Ultimately, I have survived but at what price? I have shed so many tears that they don't even come anymore.  There is so much I just don't understand and I don't think I ever will.  Just when you think you have a situation or someone figured out... there is change.  Lots and Lots of Change. 

Terry's Mom is still with us.  Today I took her to the doctor.  The doctor wrote a referral for Hospice care.  "Failure to Thrive" is the reason for the referral.  I think of all the changes that I have made in my life to help her.  I think of all the opportunities that I passed up.  Then to see the diagnosis of "Failure to Thrive".  What lesson is there for me to learn in this?  Maybe I will find out when I die.  Words are just words.  Actions do speak louder than words.  I know that MY actions have been with the best intent.  I know that I have honestly and truthful tried to give her quality of life, even when it wasn't convenient. 

I just need to learn how to let go of the anger.  When others don't say what I think they should, act they way I think they should.  No one is here with me and Terry.  No one is here day in and day out.  I'm not complaining but want to make a point.  STOP AND THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK.  I know that is something I have had to learn.  I am still learning.  We are doing the best we know how too.  When you say "Thank You, But..."  I sincerely hope that NO ONE and I mean NO ONE, not even my exhusband has to go through what we have gone through.  The disappointment in family and friends.  Now, don't everyone start calling and texting because I have not named names and all you will do is make yourself look guilty when no one knows who I'm talking about.